So every week
I normally do a Motivational Monday post, so this is a something a little different
today! This is due to a number of reasons, but mainly I’ve had today off work, I’ve
had an awesome 3 day weekend catching up with friends and enjoying the beautiful
weather. I was going to write a post this morning but was too busy making the
most of today! It’s taken me a long time to realise its ok to blog when I like,
I don’t need a regimental routine and have to post every day, it’s a hobby and I
should do it when I feel like it and write because it’s what I love to do! It’s
such a great feeling when you have that wake up call, I used to panic if I didn’t
blog on my usual days but I’ve learnt that it’s ok!
However I
then spent a few hours catching up on my favourite blogs with a cup of camomile
tea in hand when I came across this thought provoking post by Elizabeth over at
‘Delightfully
Tacky’ titled ‘What’s keeping you from achieving your goals?’ and she
encouraged her readers to join in and answer the question too. So instead of
bringing you a motivational Monday post, today I am going to attempt to answer
the question as I think it’s still in keeping with my usual Monday posts. If
you read my motivational Monday series you will know that the aim of me doing
them is to keep me focused and positive and to move forward in my life, so this
question fits in perfectly.
Well I can’t
explain how relevant the question ‘What’s keeping you from achieving your goals?
‘ Is to me at this moment in time. My life feels a little on stand still at the
moment and I’m not sure how to move forward. I am 28, living in my parents
loft, not particularly enjoying work at the moment and I am piss poor, to say
this isn’t where I thought I would be at 28 would be a massive understatement.
Although I can’t complain as I have no regrets and have had some incredible opportunities
come my way, but right now I am in a rut.
My dream and
goal is to travel the world, see as much of it as I can and I’d love to live
and work in somewhere like New Zealand for a year. So what’s stopping me I hear
you ask? Well I am the queen of making excuses, I am also a giant wimp who
lives in a bubble of fear and I also have a sense of responsibility. Let me break
these down for you... I am terrified about going travelling on my own, although
I have an overpowering need to see if I can and prove to myself I can do it. I
also worry that at 28 I am a little too old to be living a backpacker’s life
now, I have done a few countries when I was younger and no most people will be
a lot younger than me. Also at 28 so many of my friends are settling down,
being sensible and buying houses, having babies etc so a small part of me
wonders if I should be doing the same? I am 98% sure I am not ready for any of
that yet, there is way too much I want and need to do first.
I also have a
massive sense of responsibility to my parents, my mum has MS and needs a lot of
support and help. My dad is an awesome carer to her, but works full time and doesn’t
have the best health himself. So since moving home I have taken on a caring
role and do as much as I can to help out. So I’m now going to sound like a complete
dick, but I worry they are becoming a little reliant on me and don’t want that
to happen as I am desperate to move abroad, on the flip side I would worry
about them and don’t want it all to land on my dad’s shoulders. They don’t hold
me here, they encourage me to live my life, so I know they’d feel terrible if
they knew I felt like this but I guess if you’re a carer yourself you may
understand.
Another
slight thing keeping me back from achieving my goals is the fact I have zero
money. I am useless at saving! I do try but fail miserable! Each month I try
and keep some pennies aside but then guaranteed something happens to my car or
something pops up unexpectedly. I am now debating working abroad but now sure
how I would even start looking for work, I’ve also been thinking about doing a
TEFL course and I might be able to get around using that.
I also have a
giant fear that I will never get to achieve my goals, what if this is it? Well I
can make as many excuses under the sun but at the end of the day my dreams and
goals are in my hands and it’s up to me to get myself there. I know I will
achieve my goals one day, life is too short not to live it to the max and do
what you want. I am determined to sort out the financial situation, to start
coming up with a plan of where to go first and how to do it. I get really upset
as I wish I could be doing it now, I think I just need to remind myself that
where I am now is taking steps towards achieving what I want and its going to
feel even more well deserved and appreciated when I do get there.
Apologies for
the long waffling post, I’m not sure it even makes sense, but I can’t explain
how good it feels to just sit at my laptop and just type all that out. Not thinking
about it too much, just letting the words flow. Do you see what I mean I am
amazing at making excuses? I think I need someone to come along and give me a
massive kick on the bum! I would love to hear what’s keeping you back from
achieving your goals?