Beating SAD

I was diagnosed with SAD (seasonal affective disorder) around 2 years ago also known as the winter blues. I really struggle once Autumn hits but this weekend it's worse than ever! I've had a to do list I really wanted to tackle this weekend but yesterday I pretty much slept all day. I have zero motivation at the moment, I feel low and exhausted and it's hard, real hard. If you know, this isn't me at all and I like to be busy and social but right now I just want to hide under my duvet. So this is why I'm sat in front of my computer screen, I want to tackle this head on.  No medical expert but I know what helps me and who knows it may help one of you too. I feel if I put pen to paper or in this are print to screen, I have a plan and it may help so here's how I'm gonna stand up to my SAD this week....

1. Fix my lumi light! - if you haven't heard of this these then your missing out! It's a light that wakes you up with a fabricated natural light instead of an alarm. It's fantastic and does really help! I know what your thinking though.... If it really helps why isn't it working now? Well my friend, because I've been feeling so shit I haven't even had the energy to change the time settings on it since the clocks went back a few weeks ago now so it's been out of action. That's how unmotivated I've been. So tonight I'm gonna push myself to sort it out and fix it!

2. Running - since autumns kicked in my runs have gradually come to a halt. I've got my first half marathon in March and really need to have a giant kick up the arse!! The wonderful thing about SAD is you feel exhausted so I've barely done any of my usual exercise so I've gone from 6 gym sessions and 3 runs a week to just 2 gym sessions. This is bonkers as I find exercise really clears my head, is my number one stress reliever and I get such a buzz after it. So this week I'm gonna really push myself and run every other day. 

3. Diet - so when you feel lower than low you either don't want to eat at all or want to eat EVERYTHING and I mean everything wrong! These last few weeks I've either not eaten or just been eating toast, crisps and sausage rolls and for someone who tries to eat mainly clean and unprocessed foods it's definitely playing havoc with my body! I feel massively bloated - I am literally one Dorito away feel someone asking when my food baby is due! I know it won't be helping my energy levels either so this week I'm cutting out the junk and furlong myself properly...

4. Relax! - I get super stressed and pissed off as I like to get things done, to be busy, to achieve things but when you have SAD getting out of bed is a huge achievement let alone doing anything else. I need to let that go, listen to my body a bit more and chill!

5. Embrace Autumn! - ok so I actually really like this time of year. I like the autumn evenings, the chill in the air, the pretty colours of the leaves. I just hate the way having SAD makes me feel. But do you know what it is the time of year for hibernating and cosying up at home and I think I need to be cool with that! I run around like a blue ass fly most of the time so actually maybe my mind is telling me to switch off.

Wish me luck with this!

Health & Fitness Roundup - March

You may remember my ‘Health & Fitness Roundup’ posts from the beginning of last year, well they are back! I found it super helpful to put out there how I’m getting on and it helped me to keep focused.

I have been over weight for a long time, I have an under active thyroid which doesn’t help matters but at the end of the day I have eaten way too much of the wrong things! It definitely affects my confidence and self esteem and I don’t want to live like that anymore. Over the past year I have massively got into my fitness but my nutrition lets me down and has meant the weight doesn’t budge much. I want to feel fitter and healthier, I want to feel confident in my own skin. So each month I am going to share with you all how I am getting on, so here goes...

Food...

I feel like I have finally seen the light with this one! I have started eating clean, meaning my diet mainly consists of single ingredient foods and no caffeine, sugar, wheat or alcohol. I stuck to his religiously before I went to Australia and lost a stone. I also found that I felt a thousand times better, I had more energy, my eczema disappeared and my thyroid levelled out. It was amazing! But then Australia, Christmas, my30^th and a mass of social occasions happened and I fell off the wagon big time. Nightmare! However I’m finally back on it and have been pretty good this month up until the last week as I’ve been on leave and do you know what, I don’t want to not be able to have a life, so I’ve been pretty naughty but I’m ready to go back to being good next week. I’ve also been doing a massive food prep session on a Sunday evening so I’m all ready for the week ahead. As I juggle 2 jobs I find that I’m sometimes in a rush or too tired to go so I eat crap on the go, so prepping for the week ahead I have no excuses any more! I think I’m also going to post some of my clean recipes on here to share with you all!

Exercise...

Boot camp x 8 sessions

Physiques x12 sessions

Runs x 12

I’m still doing my boot camp which is a circuits class, I do 2 sessions a week and I’ve been doing it for over a year! I think its the longest I’ve ever stuck at any form of exercise! The guys who run it also run a physiques class which is a ladies weight lifting class which I’ve joined and been doing 3 times a week. Before this I had never lifted weights in my life and I LOVE IT!!

I’m also still going at the running, I’m horrendously bad at it!  I really wish I could improve but I am so slow and regularly have to stop and walk 1whilst other runners lap me! Mortifying! Saying that though, I’ve signed to do another 10k this summer and I’ve signed up to do a half marathon in October, bonkers I know!!! I can barely run 5 k at the mo but I need to have aims to keep me motivated!

I’ve also signed up to do another tough mudder at the end of April, I loved it last year it was such an amazing experience! However everyone I’m doing it with are amazing runners and I’m terrified I’m going to be left behind!

Progress...

Chest:   -0”

Hips:  -2”

Thighs:   left -0.5” Right -0”

Bottom: -0”

Arms:  Left -0” Right -0”

Waist: -0.5”

Weight loss this month: 6lb

Total Weight loss: 6lb

I am pretty chuffed with this month’s progress! On average I’ve not lost many inches and I’m 6lbs down! Over all I need to lose 4 stone, I am hoping I can achieve this by the end of the year, fingers crossed!

30 before 30 Bucketlist -Did I Complete It?

HOLY SHIT! I’ve been 30 for 2 and a half weeks!! Waaaaaaah!! This absolutely terrifies me as for numerous reasons. I think this is partly due to the fact I think in my head I’m still 17, I certainly don’t feel mature enough to 30. 10 years ago if you asked me what I thought I would be doing ten years from now my reply would have been along the lines of ‘be in a job I love, own a house, married with babies’, damn you Disney for making me want the fairy tale! Instead of any of this I’m now 30 and live in my parents loft and am in a bit of a rut. I guess I also thought I would have achieved a lot more by now. Don’t me wrong I have no regrets, I don’t believe in them and have had the most awesome experiences, travelled to some incredible places so I really can’t complain. My life is pretty great I just need some changes and new challenges and that’s where this 30 before 30 list stemmed from.

I also better state for the record that turning 30 is definitely not the end of the world, it has been ridiculously fun so far and I think I am going to like my flirty thirties. I am feeling confident and happy and can’t wait to see what the future holds!

So if you’ve been a visitor to Lipsticks and Lashes for a while, you will know that for all the reasons above, a year and a half ago I created a bucket list of 30 things I would love to achieve before I turn 30. It was a wide variety of things that I have wanted to do for a while but for whatever reason have been a lame ass and haven’t done yet. They were all things that I felt would help me make the most of life and make me a better person. Now I am 30 I thought id better give you all the low down of how I got on with completing my bucket list, so here’s where I got to…

1. Start dating...  yeah, so, umm, I went on numerous dates and they were all a bit disastrous and I am pretty adamant now there are no nice men on dating websites, they are either bonkers, needy or just wanting to send you willy pictures. So anyone know where I can meet a nice, funny, handsome man without going on tinder or pof then please shout! All tips greatly received!

2. Go indoor skydiving. I so nearly did this a while back when I was in Manchester! Sadly there just wasn’t enough time to do it! I’m going to definitely ass this to my 40 before 40 list!

3. Cook one dish a week from scratch... I smashed this one! Wahoo! Over the past 6 months I’ve really embraced clean eating and am feeling so much better for it! My eczema has cleared up my under active thyroid seems to have levelled out and I have so much more energy. This means I am cooking from scratch, I usually do a massive batch cook on a Sunday now so I can’t slack in the week when I am juggling two jobs and don’t have time to cook.

4. Say yes more! To any opportunities that come my way. – This is an ongoing one and I think I’ve been embracing it pretty well! It’s a great way to put myself out there more and I have had so much fun doing this! I do love this one and it’s definitely going to be continued, it’s pushed me out of my comfort zone and allowed me to experience new things.

5. Learn to long board – I have a long board and am working on it! I am a giant wimp and keep jumping off before I think I’m going to fall off! I have zero sense of balance so it’s been fun! I even had a little skate crew going in the summer which was so much fun, especially when we followed it with hot chocolates in the pub garden!

6. Try a roller derby – Failed this! Boo!

7. Visit Disney World in Florida. Hmm I think this one will be scooting over to my 40 before 40 list as I had no funds to pull this one off! Or any annual leave left to take it with for that matter!

8. Start a ‘grateful’ diary and record 3 things I am happy for every day. – So I started this one but then kind of failed miserable! I just keep forgetting to do it! It has made me realize how important it is to take a moment every so often to appreciate things a bit more, especially when I’m having a bad day!

9. Buy a house – Nope definitely not done this, still in the parents freezing loft….

10. Try Paddle boarding. – Tried it and loved it! Can’t wait for summer to try it again!

11. Start a successful Etsy Shop – a work in progress! Its up and running now (Check out Pearl Divine here) and I am constantly adding new bits, so I hope with hard work it may become successful!  

12. Write a book – I’ve started writing and I love it, just wish there was hours in a day so I could get more done!

13. Live abroad for a month – COMPLETED!! This was awesome! I spent last November in Australia (Blog posts coming soon, I promise!) and it was magical! I spent two weeks on the Gold Coast for a friends wedding, a week in Sydney a week in Ayres Rock and a week in Melbourne. To say I am still suffering with post holiday blues would be an understatement!

14. Get down to a clothing size 12 – I have dropped a stone and a dress size but still not near a size 12, however I am feeling a thousand times more body confident than when I first wrote this, which I thinks an achievement in itself!

15. Run a 10k – COMPLETED! In a respectable 1hour and 20 mins! My next challenge is a half marathon…. From someone who couldn’t run 2 minutes without collapsing when I started in May last year, I am pretty pleased with this one!

16. Do a painting on a canvas – I am behind with this one! I have bought a canvas and some neon acrylic paints!! I can’t wait to have a play with them. If it looks half decent I might even share the final painting here!

17. Go to a music festival – COMPLETED!! I went to a small festival called Blissfield’s last weekend for a friends hen do! I had the best time and determined to head to a few more next year!

18. Visit Machu Piccu – Lack of funds mean this hasn’t happened… YET! Its definitely one I have to do!

19. Fall in love and be loved – see no1

20. See the northern lights – not yet 

21. Visit Ireland – DONE! I was super lucky and for my 30^th birthday we ticked this one off by heading to Dublin! I went with a group of girl friends and had a blast! The best way to turn the big 30!

22. Try Wakeboarding – I’ve tried it and LOVED it!! I found out a local lake is all set up for wakeboarding and I went along for a lesson and it was so much fun! I’m planning to go again this year!

23. Start an art class – didn’t manage this one but I am dropping a few evening sessions at work this year so hoping this may be something I can pick up then!

24. Learn to Surf – Nope, still not managed this one!

25. Learn another language – or this one…

26. Learn the ukulele – there is a local Ukulele group that meets in the local pub, I’ve been to a few sessions now! I am really bad at learning to play but its good fun! I’ve learnt I am just not musical!

27. Figure out some sort of career path and be happy with whatever it may be. – Still working on this!

28. Make a drift wood coffee table – I really really want to do this one, so its going straight onto my 40 before 40 list!

29. Read one book every month – COMPLETED!! I hope to continue this as it’s such a fun way to relax and switch off.

30. Go to New Zealand – I was hoping to do this in March this year but due to a severe lack of funds it’s had to be scrapped! Gutted but I still hope to visit one of these days!

I would say that’s about half completed, and half not managed or still working on. I am pretty pleased with this! I’ve loved having a few goals and working to achieve my 30 before 30, being able to tick them off as done is such an achievement! I am now working on my 40 before 40 list! I will post it here when I have decided on everything I want to be on there!

Do you do lists like this? Do you have any suggestions on what should be on my next bucket list?

Motivational Monday// June

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These posts always seem to have the most amazing timing, because in all honesty I feel like shit at the moment and really need a kick up the bum!

I seem to be ill and run down all the time at the moment, the end of last month I had some weird virus which wiped me out, then two weeks ago I had a stinking cold and all I could do was work and come home and just sleep. I hate it, I’m at my best when I’m busy and social, having things slow me down makes me mad! Then the past week I have just been feeling so over tired, you know that feeling when you’ve not slept and it makes you feel physically sick. It’s kind of a weird hangover feeling, minus the alcohol. My friends think I’ve been doing too much and I’ve burnt out a bit, while I don’t really know what to think.

I feel frustrated and upset, I feel down and lonely. It’s the worst. It’s also terrible timing, I have recently started a new job and feel like I must be making a terrible impression as I’m so exhausted its making the simplest of tasks seem hard work. It’s also impacting my exercise, if you follow my monthly Health and fitness posts you’ll know that this year I’m working hard to improve my fitness and have signed up to do a 10k in September. I started this with zero fitness and could run a few inches without struggling, I’m still a long way off from my goal but I have definitely improved. However the past couple of weeks, I have lost all confidence with running and I really struggle with it. It’s like I run for a bit then have a weird mini panic attack, can’t breathe so have to walk a bit. I massively want to overcome this but have no idea where to start!!

I don’t know where to start to try and feel better mentally and physically but I’ve decided June is all about looking after myself. I am going to sort out my diet and really focus on eating healthy. I am crap when it comes to food, I tend to go for convenience and end up going all day without food and eating rubbish late at night. So for this month I am going to work hard on eating healthy, I am also going to go to bed early whenever I can. I am also pretty bad at this at the moment, I tend to feel shattered all day and then find it hard to sleep so stay awake to the early hours. I am also going to try and relax more, read books, have baths etc. I am going to make sure I’m okay. Fingers crossed this will clear my head and have a knock on effect o everything else.

Have you ever felt like this? What do you do to take care of yourself?

April's Health and Fitness Roundup

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Welcome to April’s instalment of my monthly health and fitness updates, you can check out last month’s here. The idea behind these posts is to keep me focused and on track, so here is how April went...

Food...

Still having issues when it comes to my diet! It has definitely improved since I started my new job as I have to be a bit more organised and take food with me so I have been taking in salads for lunch, rice cakes, bananas and nakd bars for snacks. I have also been eating breakfast! This has been a huge deal for me, I haven’t eaten breakfast in years as it makes me feel a bit sick the thought of food in the morning. However I have been trying to be good and I’m determined to eat breakfast so I’ve been having a small bowl of porridge before I go to work. So week days I’m getting there but it all seems to go a little to pot by the weekends! I am going back to weight watchers this month and hoping that will keep me focused and on track!

Exercise done in April...

Boot camp x 11 sessions

Rowing x 3 sessions (3 hours)

Runs x 9

I made all but one boot camp sessions this month which is a huge achievement for me! I can even hold a plank for a minute now and I can see my fitness has improved so much by going to the circuit sessions. I’m really pleased with my progress! In terms of running I’m still very much a ‘run for a few minutes / walk for a few minutes’ runner, which stresses me out as I run, feel like I can’t breathe so walk. It hacks me off as I just want to run! I don’t know if this is a psychological thing or not?! I really want to crack this and be a runner! Anyone else have this problem or experienced it? I did a colour run this month which was incredible! I would definitely recommend it, so much fun! Determined to stay on track and make running fun, I’ve also signed up to do a gunge run in June with some friends I went to uni with. Its 5k and at every kilometre you run through a gunge bath!! I can’t wait! Think it’s going to be hilarious! Oooh and my sponsorship pack for my 10k in September arrived this week which has also inspired me to keep going and try to conquer this challenge!

Progress this month...

	Loss in March in inches	Total Loss in inches
Chest	0.5	2
Hips	+1	3
Left Thigh	0.5	3.5
Right Thigh	1	3.5
Bottom	0	4
Left Arm	0	2
Right Arm	0	2
Waist	+1	4

Weight loss this month:   0lbs

Total weight loss:   9lbs

With the amount of exercise I’ve been doing I feel a bit gutted that I’ve hit a bit of a plateau this month in terms of weight loss and inches lost. However I do think I need to get the diet side of this under control, which is my next challenge!

March's Health and Fitness Roundup

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Welcome to my third instalment of my monthly health and fitness updates, you can check out last month’s here. The idea behind these posts is to keep me focused and on track, so here is how March went...

Food...

My diet is my big let down at the minute, I completely fell off the bandwagon in February and have been having a nightmare trying to get back on it. I have been so stressed with handing my notice in at work it’s all been a bit too much and I am a comfort eater. I’m also a convenience eater, I eat quick things I can grab on the go and spend very limited time in the kitchen. Well my friends, that is all going to change! As I mentioned in Aprils motivational Monday post, April is all about change and that includes my diet. My new job is based nowhere near any shops so I can’t just nip out for a naughty m&s sandwich, I will have to be prepared! I am going to make a healthy pack lunch each day which I think will make a big difference for me and get my more in control of what I put into my mouth. My other challenge is to start eating breakfast, at present the thought of eating when I wake up makes me feel sick. I don’t get those people who say they wake up hungry, it baffles me! But I know it’s the important meal of the day so I am going to try my best with it. I am heading back to weight watchers, I find getting weighed each week keeps me on the straight and narrow too.

Exercise done in March...

Boot camp x 6 sessions

Rowing x1 sessions (1.5 hours)

Runs x7

The last week in March was a massive write off as I was finishing work and I then had a stinking cold so all exercise was off. Prior to that thought I was managing 2 bootcamp sessions a week, I normally do 3 so was a little unhappy with myself on this one. However I have now thrown running in the mix. As I mentioned last month I have signed up to run a 10k in September so I have started working towards that. At present I can’t run 1k, this is no exaggeration, I run for a few minutes then walk but I am determined to improve and show myself that I can do it!

Progress this month...

	Loss in March in inches	Total Loss in inches
Chest	0.5	1.5
Hips	2.5	4
Left Thigh	2	3
Right Thigh	1.5	2.5
Bottom	2	4
Left Arm	0.5	2
Right Arm	0.5	2
Waist	2.5	5

Weight loss this month:   4lbs

Total weight loss:   9lbs

I also managed to wedge myself into a size 14 pair of jeans so I am pretty happy with this month’s progress! I still have a long way to go and I’m determined to stay on track this month and work really hard. Wish me luck! 

January's Health and Fitness Roundup

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This is a completely new kind of post from me, a monthly health and fitness update! I don’t usually share this part of my life on here but I’m hoping that by recording it regularly it will keep me motivated and on the straight and narrow!

I have been over weight for a long time, I have an under active thyroid which doesn’t help matters but at the end of the day I have eaten way too much of the wrong things and don’t move nearly half as much as I should! I have finally reached a point over Christmas where I can’t bear to feel bloated and uncomfortable with myself. It definitely affects my confidence and self esteem and I don’t want to live like that anymore. So this isn’t a new years resolution, I think there a load of pants, this is all about a permanent life change. I want to feel fitter and healthier, I want to feel confident in my own skin. So each month I am going to share with you all how I am getting on, so here goes...

Food...

To sort out my diet I have signed up to weight watchers, I have followed their programme before and have really enjoyed it and always seen results. By going each week to get weighed and recording everything I eat on their phone app, it really helped to keep me on track. I don’t find weight watchers limiting, or feel that I am ‘dieting’, I can eat anything I just need to track and stay within my allocated points! I’m not going to lie though I have derailed a few times this month as it was my birthday near the beginning of the month and I’ve had numerous celebrations involving food and drink. I’ve also been a bit poorly for the last week or so have been a bit lazy with food prep but I’m determined to get back on the wagon!

Exercise...

Boot camp x10 sessions

Rowing x2 sessions (3 hours)

Yoga x 1 session

Step aerobics x 1 session

I’ve gone from very limited exercise to doing something every other day at the least over January. I signed up for boot camp, which is basically a circuit’s class 3 times a week. I decided to sign up for the morning sessions which start at 6am (yes it is ridiculously early!) but I have found it a great way to start the day and have to admit I really enjoy it! It’s different every session and is a great mix of cardio and weights. I definitely have seen my fitness improve and I have signed up to keep going in February!

I also go rowing (out at sea) once a week for 90 minutes which I have been doing since I was about 14. I love being out at sea and it’s a great exercise for your whole body. It’s been cancelled a couple of times this month due to the weather so I’ve not been out as much as I like.

I’ve also tried to throw in a couple of other classes but have found it pretty exhausting so this is something I might try again towards the end of February and I don’t want to overdo it.

Progress...

Chest:   -1”

Hips:  -2”

Thighs:   left -2” Right -1”

Bottom: -2”

Arms:  Left -1” Right -1”

Waist: -2.5”

Weight loss this month: 7lb

Total Weight loss: 7lb

I am pretty chuffed with this month’s progress! On average I’ve lost 2 inches all over and I’m 7lbs down! Over all I need to lose 4 stone, I am hoping I can achieve this by the end of the year. I am off to Australia in November and would love to be able to wear a bikini!