So every week I normally do a Motivational Monday post, so this is a something a little different today! This is due to a number of reasons, but mainly I’ve had today off work, I’ve had an awesome 3 day weekend catching up with friends and enjoying the beautiful weather. I was going to write a post this morning but was too busy making the most of today! It’s taken me a long time to realise its ok to blog when I like, I don’t need a regimental routine and have to post every day, it’s a hobby and I should do it when I feel like it and write because it’s what I love to do! It’s such a great feeling when you have that wake up call, I used to panic if I didn’t blog on my usual days but I’ve learnt that it’s ok!
However I then spent a few hours catching up on my favourite blogs with a cup of camomile tea in hand when I came across this thought provoking post by Elizabeth over at ‘Delightfully Tacky’ titled ‘What’s keeping you from achieving your goals?’ and she encouraged her readers to join in and answer the question too. So instead of bringing you a motivational Monday post, today I am going to attempt to answer the question as I think it’s still in keeping with my usual Monday posts. If you read my motivational Monday series you will know that the aim of me doing them is to keep me focused and positive and to move forward in my life, so this question fits in perfectly.
Well I can’t explain how relevant the question ‘What’s keeping you from achieving your goals? ‘ Is to me at this moment in time. My life feels a little on stand still at the moment and I’m not sure how to move forward. I am 28, living in my parents loft, not particularly enjoying work at the moment and I am piss poor, to say this isn’t where I thought I would be at 28 would be a massive understatement. Although I can’t complain as I have no regrets and have had some incredible opportunities come my way, but right now I am in a rut.
My dream and goal is to travel the world, see as much of it as I can and I’d love to live and work in somewhere like New Zealand for a year. So what’s stopping me I hear you ask? Well I am the queen of making excuses, I am also a giant wimp who lives in a bubble of fear and I also have a sense of responsibility. Let me break these down for you... I am terrified about going travelling on my own, although I have an overpowering need to see if I can and prove to myself I can do it. I also worry that at 28 I am a little too old to be living a backpacker’s life now, I have done a few countries when I was younger and no most people will be a lot younger than me. Also at 28 so many of my friends are settling down, being sensible and buying houses, having babies etc so a small part of me wonders if I should be doing the same? I am 98% sure I am not ready for any of that yet, there is way too much I want and need to do first.
I also have a massive sense of responsibility to my parents, my mum has MS and needs a lot of support and help. My dad is an awesome carer to her, but works full time and doesn’t have the best health himself. So since moving home I have taken on a caring role and do as much as I can to help out. So I’m now going to sound like a complete dick, but I worry they are becoming a little reliant on me and don’t want that to happen as I am desperate to move abroad, on the flip side I would worry about them and don’t want it all to land on my dad’s shoulders. They don’t hold me here, they encourage me to live my life, so I know they’d feel terrible if they knew I felt like this but I guess if you’re a carer yourself you may understand.
Another slight thing keeping me back from achieving my goals is the fact I have zero money. I am useless at saving! I do try but fail miserable! Each month I try and keep some pennies aside but then guaranteed something happens to my car or something pops up unexpectedly. I am now debating working abroad but now sure how I would even start looking for work, I’ve also been thinking about doing a TEFL course and I might be able to get around using that.
I also have a giant fear that I will never get to achieve my goals, what if this is it? Well I can make as many excuses under the sun but at the end of the day my dreams and goals are in my hands and it’s up to me to get myself there. I know I will achieve my goals one day, life is too short not to live it to the max and do what you want. I am determined to sort out the financial situation, to start coming up with a plan of where to go first and how to do it. I get really upset as I wish I could be doing it now, I think I just need to remind myself that where I am now is taking steps towards achieving what I want and its going to feel even more well deserved and appreciated when I do get there.
Apologies for the long waffling post, I’m not sure it even makes sense, but I can’t explain how good it feels to just sit at my laptop and just type all that out. Not thinking about it too much, just letting the words flow. Do you see what I mean I am amazing at making excuses? I think I need someone to come along and give me a massive kick on the bum! I would love to hear what’s keeping you back from achieving your goals?